So last night I went to a viewing of the Anasaszi Program that I had a chance to attend a few weeks ago. I had a blast because right after it was over I saw some of the people I met on the trail. I had wanted to make a knife while I was there, but I didn’t have the necessary tools and product to make it. So I set up a date to make this knife and I will most likely make a flute as well. I am beyond excited. The child became alive in me again. It was such an awesome renewal. I love my life and I just now am beginning to realize that I am a creator inside and that I need to hold onto that part of me. It was an awesome realization and I need to stop pushing that feeling away. In recovery I have realized that I have a lot more talents and gifts then I give myself credit for. I used to play the guitar and because drugs became my life I stopped playing it. I still have my guitar and I have had it for 8 years. It sits in my room and I walk by it everyday. Do I play it? NO should I start playing it again? YES I have also realized that anything I put effort into I can do. If I want something badly enough I will get it. I also happen to be very stubborn at times and I am aware of this and I know that I need to drop my ego. Being creative is like a party inside me. That is the only way I know how to explain it, because I turn into a completely different person and I love it. It is so awesome. I love to play and do things that make me feel useful and productive and I can actually do them now. Life can be a party of CREATIVITY all the time and it is up to me to make it possible.