This is going to be a short blog….this is because I am a scatter brain right now. Between work and school, I have not had any time to really focus on myself. I did learn some things about my future though. I have made plans and I have set them in stone, technically that makes me close minded. I need to not be closed minded and instead be open minded. I have my entire life ahead of me and I seem to have every step of it planned out. I had an awakening the other day. I had to write the second part of my auto biography and it was based on my future and where I saw myself. I began to really dig deep and find out that I have planned my life out and that people change and my future might not end up being everything I thought it might be…it could be more or less but I need to be content and balanced with however I allow it to turn out. I was talking to my friend about school this week too. She gave me some serious advice and asked me questions that I really had to think about in order to answer them. It is good to have a plan, but I don’t think it is always a good idea to set everything in stone. That leads to no room for change or improvement. Maybe UC Berkeley served its purpose already and maybe I am better set for NYU or Stanford or even a smaller school that I can achieve my wildest dreams at. Who knows?.....................

WOW!! So I decided at the end of the last semester that I was going to balance my life between school, work, and my personal life. Well school started last week and I am already stressed out. I need to find my balance and I am on my way to doing so, but last week was very intense for me. I am dating someone new and just getting to know them and I realize how much time it actually takes to get to know someone. I know that I need to become more aware of my time availability and I need to work on balancing everything out. It is possible and I can do it, I just need to focus on what is most important and not allow myself to get distracted. I have issues with money and I know that it most likely has a lot to do with my past. I am great with money, although I am always super paranoid about not making enough. I don’t spend it on anything other than the things that I need and the bills that I have to pay. That is what is so weird about it. I do not have to work 55 hours a week and I am not going to make myself work that much either. It is not healthy for me, nor is it a necessity. I will be positive and find the proper balance. I am excited about finding the appropriate balance, although at the same time I am stressing out on finding that balance, because I still want to be a somewhat normal college student. I want to be able to drive to California to see my best friend some weekend and I want to be able to go to art shows and poetry readings when I want to, but it is very difficult and I need to decide what is most important and just go from there. I can do anything that I put my mind to. I am going to be completely optimistic and simply focus on the simplicity life may bestow on me and go from there. May the force be with me!!