So I am totally learning what love is again, and I’m learning it is not based on anything materialistic or superficial. I am learning what actually makes it possible to experience to the fullest degree. The funniest thing is that I thought I already had experienced love to the fullest degree, but I now I’m learning so much more.
I have this little thing inside my chest and in my stomach that keeps moving at a really fast pace, and there is a part of me that wants to turn it off but there is ALSO a part of me that wants to embrace it. It happens to be one of the most interesting feelings I have ever felt and I am learning that I don’t have control over all of my feelings all of the time.
To help feel the experience to its fullest degree, I am not setting any expectations on my current relationship and only thinking positively. The only thing that is difficult is when one of us goes away for a long time. That is happening soon, and that is really going to be difficult for me to deal with; although I am going to stay positive.
I am learning how to live life to the fullest more and more every day that goes by. I always tell everyone at the end of my presentations that my life is great but that I still deal with consequences. Today I allow the positive things to outweigh the negative ones, and I live in the moment as often as possible. Life can be beautiful, and that is because that is the choice I made a long time ago. It comes hand in hand with me choosing my dreams over drugs!!