The semester is almost over and I am so excited. I am almost a senior, which means that I will have my Bachelors in Psychology in one year. Who would have ever thought that I would have been able to accomplish something as grand as that?! It has not been an easy road to say the least. Someone I interviewed today said something along the lines of someone asking her what she would go back out for. Meaning what situation in her life would she get high again for. She said that she had been through so many things in recovery, that there is nothing bad enough that would ever make her use drugs again. That seems like such a simple statement, but I am going to have to agree with her on it. There is nothing bad enough that has not happened to me in recovery that would cause me to get high again. I sometimes wonder about that fact and it simply shows how much work I have done on myself and hoe proud of myself I currently am. It has been one heck of a struggle to accomplish all the things I have accomplished and there are consequences that I am still dealing with because of my past, but I am choosing to be a responsible adult, who can enjoy the fruits of life, rather than escaping reality and becoming a loser drug addict again. I am still learning how to live life on life terms, but I am learning and that is just a process of life. I have loved and lost love, I have done poorly on exams, I have fought with my family members, I have been lied to and mistreated, I have lost a job, I have hung out with the wrong people at the wrong time, I have watched my mother and my sister battle to the end, I have realized what true friendship really is, I learned how hard I have to work at life but what the benefits are if I do, I have just been living and experiencing life. Today I am learning how to love myself completely and not relying on anyone for anything except support. I am my own master and I am in control of all of my actions from here on out. I am responsible for everything I do and experience in life and I will never stop learning. I am okay today.