Last Saturday I called a good friend of mine because I was beyond stressed and needed a friend. We talked briefly and she told me I should join her at a world peace meditation at her Buddhist Monastery Sunday morning. So I got up early and met her there. It was a wonderful experience to be able to focus on positivity and being calm. Unfortunately it was also difficult for me to do because of how tense I was and all of the things that were running through my mind at the time. After the meditation we sat down with another friend of hers and drank tea and had a nice conversation. Shortly after that we met at a coffee shop downtown and enjoyed another good conversation. I can say that I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have the friends that I have today. When I am feeling down and out I actually know that I have someone to go to for support. I never had that in my active addiction. I also find it interesting how people think because I am in recovery and I am doing fine with my life that everything is okay. Well I am here to be completely honest with all of you and tell you that everything is not okay all of the time. Is my life horrible and unmanageable? No, but do I still have to deal with daily life struggles and learn lessons the hard way? Of course I do. Every now and again has the thought of just getting high to fix my problem occurred? Yes it has, but at the same time as I have said many times…I have consequential thinking and I don’t like not accomplishing something to the best of my ability. Drugs are no longer a part of my life for a reason. They have not done a single good thing for me, unless I look at how I am able to hopefully prevent many people from experiencing the same horrors I did at one time in my life. The reason for this blog is to let anyone who reads this know to be appreciative of the true friends you have and that drugs never solve problems for anyone at any time. Well this is my little blog/venting opportunity. Thanks to whoever reads this and gets something from it. Have an awesome day!