So last week I wrote a short blog explaining that I was run over by a truck. I also stated that I would keep everyone posted on my status with my leg and life as the time went by. Currently I am in a lot of pain and I personally feel that I am handling it very well. I have a lot of spasms, which are not fun and there is nothing that really helps subside them. In case anyone was wondering, no I am not consistently taking heavy medication. I have medication, but I only take it as needed. The rest of the time I take Tylenol for pain. My grades have dropped significantly due to this accident and I have been having issues with my memory, not to mention the anxiety I suffer, especially while in a vehicle. Other than that, I would like to note how absolutely grateful I am for the ability to walk and having my life. I started physical therapy this week and it is going well. It is not as painful as many people assume it is, but it is challenging. I also feel as if it is not just physical therapy, but mental therapy because I really have to focus on my coordination and to keep my hurt leg flat on the ground when I walk so that I can rebuild the muscle in it. Yesterday before one of my final projects everyone in the class stated what their best non-commercial present was. That means the best gift they were given that was not just purchased at a store. There were three of us out of about 40 who were grateful for the ability to walk, because we all had suffered severe traumas or accidents to our legs. There were also people who stated special items that were given to them by siblings, coworkers, family members, and friends. I had a few of the notMYkid staff share some of their experiences and it was a wonderful opportunity to be grateful for what we truly have in life and about all of the special times we have. I challenge each and every one of the individuals who read this to write down at least one thing you are truly grateful for and it can’t be materialistic. I mean try your very hardest to think about the best gift or blessing you have been granted in your life. It is pretty amazing what people come up with.
Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!!!

I have not written a blog in the longest time so I thought I would attempt to start giving a synopsis of the last month and a half of my life. This is going to be a blog of many blogs, kind of like chapters in a book. I will give and keep updates on my daily activities as well as the surgeries I undergo. On October 30, 2009, I had gone to school to meet with a professor about an upcoming exam. After meeting with her I walked to my car and while in the crosswalk I was run over by a pickup truck. I will not go into the gory details of what happened to me, except that I suffered a severe trauma to my right calf, a carpal fracture, and a big bump on my head. I still don’t know all of the details about the accident, except that the driver received a DUI. I don’t know if he was drunk or if he got the DUI because he refused to take the breathalyzer, but we shall see. Either way I find it ironic that an ex junkie gets hit by someone who was drinking and driving. I am fortunate that he stopped though. I have found many positives out of this entire situation, but it has also been a struggle. I can say that my addiction is still in existence and it is still a struggle. I also am well aware that I have true friends in my life and that I know where to go and who to go to when I am in need of support and/or advice. Well this is just the beginning of my journey of this accident and the effects it has had on my body, spirit, and mind. Until next time

So….I’ve been sick for a while now. Sick as a dog, and sometimes so sick at night that I cry wondering how I’m going to get up and face it all again the next day.

My oh-so-sweet husband is always there to comfort me, but nonetheless I still find it hard to get up and go sometimes on those very sick mornings. I go to work, sometimes switching from one job to another in one day, head to school, and drive myself crazy worrying about midterms and finals and research papers. And making sure I get enough “balanced” food into my diet so my baby grows healthy and strong in this ever-growing belly of mine. Maybe that doesn’t seem like much, but to me, whilst I go about my daily activities, all the while thinking about where the nearest exit is in case I get sick, it’s quite overwhelming. And let me tell you, being a former bulimic and having the perma-flu is NOT easy. SO, I get overwhelmed easily. The house cleaning has gone out the window, along with the dinner cooking, which left along with the grocery shopping and plant watering. When I get home, I plop down, try to squeeze in some homework, and try to remember to lie on my left side . So, as you can imagine, searching for hours for doctors, midwives, and researching practices and statistics was a little hard to do, although very important for my healthy baby.

And then last week my sister came into town. She’s 2 years younger than me, was married before me, and had her first baby before I did. I really look up to her and often find myself wondering what she would do if she were in my shoes.

Among her talents are an eye for creative design, a knack for baby-naming, and being bossy. All of these talents were very much beneficial to me during her trip. While she was in town, I learned a thing or two from her---Again. She got straight to work when she was here, helping me with homework, looking at baby names from a gazillion websites, making lists of needed baby supplies, setting up everything I would need to have my baby. Even called and made a doctor’s appointment for me. I was overwhelmed before I realized why I shouldn’t be.

I didn’t have to do this ALL of this…… by myself. I had help. And I NEED help. I kept telling myself I was strong and I could do it, and I’d HAVE to do it, because after all, I’m going to be a mom soon and I needed to be able to take on responsibilities that seem overwhelming. But then I let my sister be bossy, and I let her make an appointment, and pick out my insurance, and write down all the ins and outs of being a mom and finding discounts on baby supplies, and help me find baby names.

And I realized I’m not alone and never will be. My family, my God, and my friends are always there, always willing to be bossy and helping me get on track to where I need to be.